...what a scene

today already isn't a great day.
thanks jenika. nothing like you telling me what a loser i am to start my day.

have my winter concert tonight. now the third cosecutive concert my parents have missed. and they only caught the last two songs of spring concert in 05. it doesn't bother me as much that they don't come; it bothers me that they only call me a a slacker and lazy and never really see the work that i do. it's just really not fair to me. i bust my ass a lot to get stuff done for our theatre, our music department, and cct. anyone who's been around me for the past few years knows. it's not me trying to be an ass about wanting attention, but i'd like for jeff and mom to stop calling me a lazy shit who never gets anything done.

it's now official that i'm not goign to be able to visit any of my colleges other than University of South Carolina, College of Charleston, and University of Georgia. mom said that there's no way in hell they're going to help pay for me to fly up and look at any colleges. i've come to the conclusion that if i don't get into any of the ones i just named, i'm going to join the ranger program in army. no more bull shitting. i'm going to do something with my life.

i'd love to tell you...