the approaching storm...

i lost my job yesterday. for being in a fuckin picture. for some reason, i'm really not that sad about it. i was starting to hate the job. every few weeks there was a cool crew. but the weeks just sucked. before i get misunderstood, working with brian was very very cool, but dealing with dave and anita wasn't worth all of that. it was a good experience.

thing is, i haven't told my parents yet. i plan on telling them tonight when i get home. i didn't want to tell them about it yesterday, we all had dinner plans and i just rathered we had our nights be good.

mine was pretty good for the most part. partying at nerissa's was really nice. i hate seeing her leave again. it drives me nuts.

i think jess was a lil upset with me at the beginning of the night, maybe because i don't seem like losing my job affected me that much. it meant a lot to me, but i'm young, i'm got many other jobs to cycle through. life is too short to be constantly miserable. i can handle being miserable maybe one day a week, but any more than that is just meaning that i'm focusing on the bad too much. don't get me wrong, life has it's ups and downs, but the things that have happened lately are things that just happen to us all: losing your job, car problems, and family problems. it's just a part of life that i'm working through. it's where we find who we really are. it's easy to be a nice person when life's good, but how about when stuff starts happening? it did worry me though that jess seemed upset with me. but i hope all of that gets smoothed out. either way, i'm probably gonna have another job before 2 weeks are through, i have a few friends i can talk to. i think a restaurant job would be interesting. then maybe i can actually do customer service, not be anita's lil work munchkin when doesn't want to deal with a crew or justs wants to go nuts on me. but she does that to everyone, so it's not like it was a spite thing towards me.

i'm hoping to hear from the naval academy soon. they should be giving me an answer soon.

i left my food at home, so i will be one hungry cracka today.

i'm very scared of something right now, but i'm not going to write about it in here.

fear and happiness are two emotions that can be veiled by one another.

why am i so scared of everything?

oh well, up to now, it's been a good day...