empty chairs at empty tables....
it was one hell of a weekend. great to the last. friday just chilled, jess and i were at her pot luck dinner at pony club then came over to my house for a few minutes to see the party at my house, mainly with some charlotte ANG guys. we chilled in my apartment afterwards.
saturday i went to watch some dressage at pony club and then watched kelly do the jumps course in the afternoon with my mom. then jess came over that night and we watched the first few minutes of rent.
sunday i slept in way too late. got my science fair project rolling, and also found a good song to beat country day with in choir. the finale from rent makes a very nice choral arrangement, if i do say so myself. then jesse and i talked on the phone for a good while about our exes. it's nice that she opened up to me.
yesterday i just worked all day to get my science fair done. thank god. then i had work and then i was with jesse in frederiksted for an hour at the beach. i think we were both a lil out there. i know i was exhausted, and she was just kinda buzzed from not having done anything all day.
today i got something i've been wanting for a good while now. some steady rain and a bleak day. that can't sound any more morbid, but it's something i've missed. in fort mill, we'd get days where it was looking rainy all day with dark grey clouds. down here we never get those unless we have a hurricane. so today it finally seems to be happening. and i'm not happy. but that's the way i want it to be. these kinda days you can let the emotion just seep from you kind of thing. just slowly drain out depression, suppressed anger, anything like that. it's a day to cleanse.
empty chairs at empty tables
it's a song from the musical version of les miserables. i saw it in my singers anthology. i haven't seen the musical, i've just read the lyrics for that song and i just heard a midi version. it sounds pretty close to what i was thinking it would. that's kind of how i feel today.
it's a harsh feeling. i just feel like i'm looking around at empty shells sometimes. i don't even know why. maybe it's just how i want to feel subconciously. i think a day of feeling like this will probably do me good. a day to reflect and just think about stuff. not in a positive way, but not in a negative way either. in a critical, almost cynical way.
long live emotions.
saturday i went to watch some dressage at pony club and then watched kelly do the jumps course in the afternoon with my mom. then jess came over that night and we watched the first few minutes of rent.
sunday i slept in way too late. got my science fair project rolling, and also found a good song to beat country day with in choir. the finale from rent makes a very nice choral arrangement, if i do say so myself. then jesse and i talked on the phone for a good while about our exes. it's nice that she opened up to me.
yesterday i just worked all day to get my science fair done. thank god. then i had work and then i was with jesse in frederiksted for an hour at the beach. i think we were both a lil out there. i know i was exhausted, and she was just kinda buzzed from not having done anything all day.
today i got something i've been wanting for a good while now. some steady rain and a bleak day. that can't sound any more morbid, but it's something i've missed. in fort mill, we'd get days where it was looking rainy all day with dark grey clouds. down here we never get those unless we have a hurricane. so today it finally seems to be happening. and i'm not happy. but that's the way i want it to be. these kinda days you can let the emotion just seep from you kind of thing. just slowly drain out depression, suppressed anger, anything like that. it's a day to cleanse.
empty chairs at empty tables
it's a song from the musical version of les miserables. i saw it in my singers anthology. i haven't seen the musical, i've just read the lyrics for that song and i just heard a midi version. it sounds pretty close to what i was thinking it would. that's kind of how i feel today.
it's a harsh feeling. i just feel like i'm looking around at empty shells sometimes. i don't even know why. maybe it's just how i want to feel subconciously. i think a day of feeling like this will probably do me good. a day to reflect and just think about stuff. not in a positive way, but not in a negative way either. in a critical, almost cynical way.
long live emotions.
posted by JH at 9:11 AM
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